My Indigo awakening happened last year, at a time when I'd gone through a great deal of personal 'stuff' and was beginning to at least see a light at the end of the very dark tunnel.
My marriage had broken down after I'd spent a long time being very unhappy without really knowing why....but I'd been deliberately led down that path to learn things and for that I must be grateful. During this time I went through depression, physical illness and desperate longing for a life that was really 'me', and wondering why this wasn't 'it' when I'd always thought it would be. I'd married someone who I thought was everything I ever wanted - but it was all a mirage. And more importantly, what I thought I wanted was a lie. A lie to myself, and it was all wrong.
After I was coming out of the dark of that situation, I was led very synchronicitously to find out about the Indigo's. And the penny well and truly dropped. Over the years of spiritual development, nothing had scratched the itch like this did. A massive weight had gone from my shoulders in an instant and I felt 'normal' for perhaps the first time in my life (as 'normal' as an Indigo ever feels :)). But suddently my existence made sense; the way I was made sense; my life so far made sense and I saw it for what it was - a series of much-needed life lessons that all led me to where I needed to be in the here and now.
I am grateful for the pain, the emotional turmoil and all the other shit that's come my way over the years. I hope I've learned enough from it to make me a stronger person for whatever purpose I'm here for. My purpose is on it's way, I can't help but feel it although it's out of my reach for now, behind a veil of mystery.
This blog is, as it's title says, my adventures through this incarnation, on this planet, at this time of change.
Much love,
Mel xx
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