Everything Under Control - Part 1

Lately I have been pondering the issue of control, and the ways in which the population of the world is kept under the thumb. Like any other Indigo this makes my blood boil. From a young age I could sense when I was being 'controlled' by other people, even if I couldn't explain it in those terms at the time. People taking my energy by undermining me, making fun of me, imposing their agendas and rules on me......

These days I'm able to deal with it on a personal level. But on a global scale, what to do? We're faced with so much of it on a daily basis and it's coming thicker and faster every day. Everything is quickening towards the new age so just as the good is coming in, the bad must go. As Indigos we're supposed to be here to get rid of this stuff, by my Gods it's hard. Where do we even start? I know the answer is to be true to yourself, stand up for yourself, speak your piece and fight against it in whichever way we can, no matter how big or small.

It's also about being aware and awake. Being aware of the ways in which we are kept in our place is a start. Here are a few of my pet peeves;

Food

I hate to be a bore, but we are what we eat. Simple as that really. However at some point over the past few years, we've somehow forgotten this and have lost the plot completely, and it staggers me that many people have no idea about food. Common sense has been replaced by a belief in 'fast-is-better'.

My particular pet-peeve under this banner is the amount of hidden sugar in our food. In canned food for instance, sugar (and salt) is used as a preservative, yet the same things are available in water alone. Sugar is completely unneccesary in that respect, so why on earth is it still used? Because we're still buying the sugary stuff. There needs to be more demand for the non-sugary versions in order that it's supplied to us.

Foods marketed as 'healthy' are often anything but. All you have to do is check the label of any cereal bar, breakfast cereal, pasta sauce, .......

Sugar is such an energetic and psychic block. Limit your intake.

Swine flu

Man-made, government controlled attempt to scare us into having a vaccination for goodness only knows what purpose. Thankfully it hasn't achieved as much fear as they intended.

Household cleaning products, air fresheners

Toxic, disgusting and unneccesary. Open a window, use essential oils and realise that you don't need a cleaning product that makes your eyes water to do basic cleaning.

Money

Banks take it all, wealth is concentrated in some areas and not others, all because someone won't put more numbers in a computer somewhere. Economics is an imagined concept, yet we all put so much enery into it.

Media

Becoming more and more obviously controlled all the time. Like sugar, a little won't do much harm but too much and you'll go mad :)

Interesting Indigo blog

Herein

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The fog is lifting

After a shaky few weeks involving many challenges, things appear to be settling down a bit (she says, trepidatiously).

I was finally made redundant last week, and I wanted to jump for joy. I realised just how much this job has been a millstone around my neck and how much it has weighed me down, even though giving it up myself would have been silly in the current climate, the Universe took care of business for me. I am now channelling my energies into other things, actually doing the things I enjoy and the things I feel I ought to be doing to earn a crust.

Opportunities are creeping out of the woodwork and I feel optimistic. There is a need for momentum and drive, and feeling a sense of purpose.

The sticky patch isn't over yet, but it will be soon enough and in the meantime.....I'm going with the flow.

I trust.

Reading the signs

I keep hearing Indigo themes in songs lately. As follows......will post more when they come to me;

Pendulum - The Other Side

Come on down to the other side
Come with us through the gates of hell
We will drag you from where you are to where you belong
There's nothing to fear, your saviors are here
The ship is coming down, the ship is coming down
The ship is coming down, coming down, coming down

Pendulum - Granite

You can hide your eyes, you can dim the lights, but they are watching!

This is a new time, with a different kind, they are the future

The only one!

This is the final call for the setting sun as they get closer.

And with a fall from grace, thy will be done the show is over.

It's a new dawn!

Muse - Uprising

The paranoia is in bloom, the PR

The transmissions will resume

They'll try to push drugs

Keep us all dumbed down and hope that

We will never see the truth around

Another promise, another scene, another

A package not to keep us trapped in greed

With all the green belts wrapped around our minds...and endless red tape to keep the truth confined

They will not force us

They will stop degrading us

They will not control us

We will be victorious

Interchanging mind-control come let the

Revolution take its toll if you could

Flick the switch and open your third eye, you'd see that

We should never be afraid to die

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that

The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that

Their time is coming to an end, we have to

Unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us

They will stop degrading us

They will not control us

We will be victorious

Getting the shit kicked out of you by life

That's me at the moment, and it's not the first time it's happened. It's probably more like the umpteenth.

I know why....it's more lessons to learn and more karmic crap to sort through. The latest episode seems to have kicked off after a lovely weekend of sound healing I had at the beginning of the month. Such an amazing weekend (which included private time at Stonehenge and the White Spring), but the crystal bowl sessions we had shifted a LOT of 'stuff' in me. I could feel it happening at the time but I didn't know how it would manifest.

Crystal bowls are intense, the sound is incredibly cosmic for wont of a better word. I've had many a sound healing session before but this was different, the sound went right through me to the depths of my soul and beyond, through other lifetimes and other galaxies. Really. But that is probably another story. Suffice to say it went deep. Initially it manifested physically, my neck was stiff and painful for about a week and I had a headache to go with it. And then the shizzle really started to hit the fan. It would seem that the crystal bowls have unearthed some deep rooted karmic stuff that needs dealing with.

I've had what some people would deem a run of bad luck over the past few weeks. Nothing has gone my way or worked out as planned...and I'm not looking for sympathy here by the way.....and I've been made to really, really feel it.

When this sort of thing happens to me, it happens in spades. Not just one thing goes awry, everything does. And now, I find myself at another turning point. Or perhaps I should call it a jumping off point - jumping up that is, not off a tall building or anything :)

The Cosmos and my guides are forcing me to the point where I have no choice but to do the things I've put off for too long. Some of it is financial stuff, and that's fine I can deal with that. The rest is personal. I've not been doing what I should be doing (although I hasten to add I detest the word 'should') and I won't progress until I start doing it. No matter how scary it is. So I will start to do the work I must do.

Promise.

It's part of an Indigo's remit to suffer. We have to deal with ourselves and our accumulated crap, as by doing so we change our vibration, and hence the vibration around us, then the vibration of those around us, and on it goes until the energy field of the planet is also raised. I believe that what I'm dealing with now is not just from this life, it's from past lives too. Some going back thousands of years. I can't explain it but the crystal bowls took me somewhere I don't fully understand, to a time and place where I was so much more than this body and this understanding of human existence. A much higher vibration, a being of light.

And in this incarnation, I have to go through the crap to get to the lighter layers beneath it. Luckily I'm tenacious and strong, and I'm protected. But I won't be the only one out there who's having this experience. I wonder how many people are out there now, not aware of themselves and their Indigo nature who are going through it and really suffering because they can't see beyond it? This thought doesn't please me, but I hope that as the ripples go out, more people will become aware and wake up to their true selves.

I am reminded of the Reiki precepts;

For today only: Do not anger; Do not worry
Be humble
Be honest in your work
Be compassionate to yourself and others

So, for today only, I will not worry. And I will Trust.

Onward and Upward.

Orbs

Lately I seem to have developed a knack for catching orbs - spirit energy - on my humble digital camera. I started noticing them in my pictures last year but lately, over the past few months, they are appearing more and more.

Here's a few of my favourites.

The top and bottom ones were taken outside my place, the middle two were taken in Menorca earlier this year, at a club set in ancient caves. The energy there was amazing (the music wasn't bad either) and it showed up in the pics.

They seem to disappear if I get snap-happy and over-enthusiastic. But that's ok. As time goes on I'm establishing a dialogue with them, a direct connection, and it's nice.

Activation?

Previously posted on Facebook....

Last night something out of the ordinary happened. At some point in the night (not sure of the exact time) I drifted between a waking and sleep state. During this state in the past, I've been subject to psychic attack, a particularly unpleasant experience that feels as if you're soul is being sucked out of you - reminds me of the Dementors in Harry Potter :) I only ever remember these things the morning after, as I fall into sleep again fairly quickly.

But, last night something different happened to me. I woke up a tiny bit to feel my solar plexus doing some very strange things. It felt as if it was being pulled on, or maybe pushed into, but the sensation was incredibly strong. And not unpleasant at all. It was like a butterflies-on-steroids feeling and I remember smiling to myself because it felt familiar. It must've lasted for a few minutes, but who knows for sure? Time and space do their own thing.

I remembered the experience fully on my way to work this morning. It's still happening too, not as strongly as during the night but I can still feel it.

And this morning I've been led to read about Starseeds - and another penny has dropped. I've also had some recollections from my childhood.....I was fascinated by astronomy in my early teens. I had several books and a telescope and I'd sit for hours and gaze at the pictures in my books, of the constellations and auroras, of all the amazing things out there in the Universe and I felt completely at home. I'd sit outside at night with my telescope (which wasn't great) and look up, find the Pole Star and navigate my way around the starry heavens. I'd pin-point the Pleiades and Orion and smile knowingly to myself without having a clue why. In my later teens I'd lie in fields with friends and watch shooting stars. There were a few years of my life when I'd see them often. I know now that was a greeting, a friendly wave from the cosmos.

I also remembered that last year when I had my cards read in Glastonbury, the reader told me that the stars were my comfort zone. This was before my Indigo awakening but her saying that resonated deeply, I'd forgotten about my love of the stars as a child/young adult. Since then it's all started to make sense.

This isn't a coincidence. I've had a week of complete shit, a number of things have occured that have left me drained of energy and feeling like certain things are going to fall apart around me. This solar-plexus 'incident' has come at a time when I needed it to happen, and when I was obviously ready for it to happen. It was not of this dimension, I'm certain. So, no matter what has happened this week, whatever will happen over the coming weeks, I trust. I trust that who/whatever is guiding me will look after me and carry me through it all. I surrender to it utterly.

It was an activation of some sort, I've been given some more of the knowledge and recollections I need, for whatever purpose it will serve as we go into the next few years. This, again, makes me smile.

My name is Mel and I'm an Indigo Adult.

My Indigo awakening happened last year, at a time when I'd gone through a great deal of personal 'stuff' and was beginning to at least see a light at the end of the very dark tunnel.

My marriage had broken down after I'd spent a long time being very unhappy without really knowing why....but I'd been deliberately led down that path to learn things and for that I must be grateful. During this time I went through depression, physical illness and desperate longing for a life that was really 'me', and wondering why this wasn't 'it' when I'd always thought it would be. I'd married someone who I thought was everything I ever wanted - but it was all a mirage. And more importantly, what I thought I wanted was a lie. A lie to myself, and it was all wrong.

After I was coming out of the dark of that situation, I was led very synchronicitously to find out about the Indigo's. And the penny well and truly dropped. Over the years of spiritual development, nothing had scratched the itch like this did. A massive weight had gone from my shoulders in an instant and I felt 'normal' for perhaps the first time in my life (as 'normal' as an Indigo ever feels :)). But suddently my existence made sense; the way I was made sense; my life so far made sense and I saw it for what it was - a series of much-needed life lessons that all led me to where I needed to be in the here and now.

I am grateful for the pain, the emotional turmoil and all the other shit that's come my way over the years. I hope I've learned enough from it to make me a stronger person for whatever purpose I'm here for. My purpose is on it's way, I can't help but feel it although it's out of my reach for now, behind a veil of mystery.

This blog is, as it's title says, my adventures through this incarnation, on this planet, at this time of change.

Much love,

Mel xx